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August 16, 2005
Mad at Running
To begin my separation from running…I went running for 40 minutes this morning. It was a good run too. I ran normal speed. The temperature was okay. I had no idea where I was going to run before I started. I just headed downhill to where there are a few options. On my run I decided that I am mad at running. Isn’t that weird that I am mad at an entire sport? I am convinced “running” doesn’t like me. It has done lots of great great things for me that I won’t belabor right now, but it’s also done some not so good things for me recently. I wanted to have a good run this morning to kind of prove I can do it and that if I decide to cut back it’s my choice to stop running-not running beating me. (Which makes no real sense since one of the reasons I would stop is b/c I think running doesn’t like me-ie. my body isn’t meant to run a lot). I can’t believe I have made running into a person that has intentions….
If I had to guess about the future months I don’t think I’ll stop running. But it would be nice for the running injury gods to be a little more favorable towards me :) I can’t believe I am complaining now that I CAN run when I COULDN’T run for so long…even though I did complain then too…[and my apologies to anyone with more serious sports injuries reading this; this must be pretty annoying to read.] I am just tired of being a continuous ball of injuries myself. Maybe I need a small amount of actual coaching advice? At the very least I do need to change SOMETHING.
Posted by Audrey at August 16, 2005 08:28 PM
Comments
I would swear you were talking about a bad-boy boyfriend who you should break up with but you can't because you love him so much that you only try to see the good that he does, forget the bad, and hope that he will change so that you can have a future together. You have moments of clarity where you know you should kick him to the curb but then you are drawn back by his alure. I think you guys should just be friends and you should find a nicer more stable guy named Cannondale or Trek to have a long term relationship with...you and the bad-boy can still hang out once in a while but he won't be able to hurt you as often.
Posted by: Rob at August 17, 2005 09:34 AM
Yeah maybe you just need a break from the relationship, you know (tagging along Rob's metaphor here). Honestly though, there's no point in pushing along something that you are not enjoying when you are not injured. I think a lot of people go through things like this at times, with running or any other sport. I hope you can find something you enjoy doing more of right now! But definitely do keep blogging! Hey even if knitting becomes your thing du jour!
Posted by: Nanda at August 17, 2005 10:55 AM
It is definitely good to take a break, especially when you are getting injured all the time. But you should always blog, even if you are hardly running!
Maybe you will do other stuff for a while and then come back and love running even more. It is really good to do other things because it makes you stronger and hopefully less injury prone!
Posted by: Barb at August 17, 2005 12:11 PM
This sounds so familiar. I had almost the same response when I was dealing with shin splints. If you want to read another one of my long rants here it is:
http://completerunning.com/chocolate-runners-blog/?p=95
The idea of it was that I was pissed at the injuries and frustration. I ended up taking a month off from running to spend time healing and getting back on track. I helped a bit for healing, but I think mentally it was a good break too.
Posted by: Jon in Michigan at August 17, 2005 02:26 PM
I know how you feel. We've talked about this before, how we sometimes wonder if our bodies are meant for running. But hang in there and keep blogging! (Or else we'll have nothing to talk about at school!)
Posted by: becky at August 17, 2005 04:06 PM
Withdrawal was that bad, eh? :) I can relate to your love/hate relationship with running. It's frustrating not to be able to unleash your potential b/c of injury or illness du jour. Though I don't think you'll give up running, I do hope you can find something that you'll like as much (or nearly as much, at least) that you can do healthily.
Posted by: Leilani at August 18, 2005 12:11 PM